Tuesday, June 12, 2012

home after the bar

i try to call my mother on the phone, but find i have no inner resources.

find a leftover stack of bliny on the dining-room table, and decide to make a late-night supper (supper is one of those left-over words from my childhood and my neck of the woods that brings me stares now)--throw on some ham and cheese, have a smoke under the maple tree with the old dog kneeling at my heels.

after eight years, no better definition of love tonight...
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.
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the procession

there they go
my thoughts
in the mown grass
pushing across the pavement
like storm clouds
what do you want from me?
i talk to the birds
i was born in the wrong time
wrong body
for this weather
i’m wrong
that we had something special
just because we had
something

today i learned
the long  meaning of roads—
possum, armadillo
hare, black cub
wolf, stag, sparrow, whelk
in the endless row of
phantoms

a ruthless faith
in the way things go’s
led me back and forth
in a long disruption
of my love for you
we still have it
though